Something new

my only wish is to be beautiful , slim , fit and cute . no more no less . thats all . what i have right now are maybe ugly , fat and maybe not cute . i have nothing right now . everyone keep talk back , they kinda curse me silently but i know they hate me . i'm not beautiful as they are . what i have right now is love and care from my family . any other than that is nothing , all i can hope is my family . im just tired with my life right now . but i don't want to give up just like this . so im taking my first step by working out to have a beautiful body . for about 1 month and a half i lose about 4 kg . but there is no different at all . maybe having a perfect life for me will never happen . i just wanted to give up . but mehhh . nothing can ever make me give up . so i continued my life as usual and still try to be perfect . maybe i have a strict personality . but you need to know me first and you will know the real me . that all . i will always tried to love all the people around me even i can't really show it .

dear grandma

just now , my grandmother just kinna sad , i see in her face . maybe my mom raise her voice to my grandma . cause my grandma mix all her medicine . my mom just want her to eat the needed medicine in certain time and the medicine so important for my grandma health . she walks in front of me and goes to her room and shut the door . that is the first time ever , i see her like that . i want to hug my grandmother , but i think its gonna be so awkward . i love her so much , im just a little bit ashamed to show the real feeling to person . all i can do is keep in deep in my heart . only Allah know how i feel to others . i can't tell from my heart by you can see from my face .

life :P

my life , being happy even in the inside bleeding .. 

loving someone is the rarest thing , but once i fell for you , thats mean i think you can make my life better ,

Dear crush , i have told you that i have been crushing on you since last year , and you are the fist crush that i ever confess to . 

Chocolate is my favorite , if you make food and there is chocolate in the ingredients thats mean i will fucking love that food .. chocolate is everything . i can get crazier than ever if i got chocolate .. 

Scared of something ? hmmm , 

i'm scared of dark and ghost , thats all .. 

Love to watch football so much !! 

i'm citizen , my favorite football player are AGUERO , MESSI , CR and BECKHAM

i don't choose to look at their face , i prefer to look at their skill ..

Games ?

thats my drug , i can't live without games , 

as you guys know i already bought GTV !! 

but didn't played yet , i have final exam on 21st October :"(

and then i will buy Assassin Creed , PES or FIFA14 and others

i can;t wait !!

i hate PBS , 

getting Band 5 is easy , 

but to get Band 6 is the hardest because devil will whispered to us , 

"you don't have to do it , it wasting your time"

because all i need to do to get Band 6 is Folio , presentation and so on ..

don't hate One Direction , please ...

yeah that true , everybody saying that One Direction is gay . don't judge them , do you know that One Direction is better than you all . I love all these 5 idiot , crazy singer .They change my life , i'm a at fat girl and ugly girl , when they said that all the guy in the world will love a girl that has good behavior and nice to them not a girl which has good  personality but bad behavior , that really make me strong because i never had a boy who love me . in my life , i always thing that everybody will hate me because i'm so fat . i have fell in love with some random hot guy . if you guys know him , i think you guy will thing that i'm just being so 'gedik' to love someone that not even fit and looking not good to partner up with me .. but i never fell hard like this . but these 5 idiot make me to believe in myself and stay strong . Zayn , Louis , Liam , Niall and Harry , they always make me stronger in every single day . i know that they don't know how meaningful are they to me . if you guys still think that they are gay . don't you guys ever see how talented they are ? if you can't see it that mean you guys just look at someone by their look not personality .. please .. if you want to be friend or what , you should look at their personality not face , once you do a mistake , it will cause rest of your life . if you guys still can't believe me , go and look at their bio . they have been go through a hard time ..

I love him , haters go away !

hahaha , mesti korang ingat Boyfriend aku kan ? mne ade ni Football Player Crush la , die hensem kan ? aku minat die lgi lme dri my Celebrity Crush (Zayn Malik ) , and he is the best for me , even he is not muslim , but believe that Sergio Aguero is perfection , has anyone interested with his football skill ? don't you think his football skill way to cool , at first i like him since Fifa11 maybe , x ingat la , he play at Argentina football club with Messi , he has the cutest son ever !! but he just divorce about two week ago , his wife is Maradona's daughter ,, i think his son (Benjamin) gonna be the best football player ever , his grandfather Maradona and his father is Aguero. i always says his name when i got bored and all my just like 'x abis2 ngan Aguero ko' , biarlah aslkan aku bahagian , aq sebut Zayn pon kawan aku menyampah , abis nak sbut nme spe ? crush ? kantoi la , baik aku panggil org yg  x pernah tau aku ni exist , pling best aku aritu pegi football match kat Stadium Bukit Jalil , Malaysia VS Manchester City !! aq org pling bahagia kat situ , even aku dok tier 2 , tpy Aguero seriously nmpk comel and macho gile , i wish i can take a picture with him or wave and smile or got signature from him at him , Aguero come to Malaysia again please !! nak sngt gi UK and gi Etihad la !! x pe sbar , akk aku ade dekat Republic Czech hope nnt klu dpt gi Republic Czech nak gak singgah UK , klu la aku dpat jadi budak line up ngan die , *dlm mimpi boleh la*  . Seriously korang jgn nak amik Aguero aku dri aku eh , HARAM disisi Athirah ;) his mine and you find someone else , :P

i just want you to ....

do not be surprised if I send you " love me" , because I'm tired secretive with you, I know I'm not as perfect as all men want, but I still have feelings and I am a girl that should be loved by a guy .

life , life , life so complicated

hye , salam , wat pe tuh ? aq tau x de spe pon nak bce aku nye blogg ni , tpy x pe , aku tulis je , sbb aq susahnak cite kat org and bertentang mate adelah kelemahan aku , aq dah berazam banyak benda untok improve diri sendiri next year 2013 first sebenarnya ku dah berazam nak kurus , tpy malangnya sifat mlass aku ni buat aku rse nak makn je , dah berat aku , mmg berat nak mapos , jgn bgi tau spe2 berat aku ni (70Kg) shhh jgn bgi tau spe2 , skang ni aku asik2 stay up mlm2 smpai kol 5 pastu bgun kol 3 , mne x nye , aku bina lemak kan , azam aku yg kedua aku nak beljar besungguh2 , yg tu mnjadi la, aku gi tusyen at Deru Warisan , setiap ari Selaa, Rabu , Khamis and Jumaat , aq skang dah beljar chapter 2 untok form 2 , ngehehe , kiranya aku main tipu sikit la , bljar dulu kan? x pe , aku neljar ke x , aku still terpandai ngehehe tpy stu bende kat sekolah org ckp klu x de kawan mmg x leh hidop kan ? betol er ? sbb aku rse sumekawan kau benci aku la, biase la aku ni mmg ckp pkai lepas, klu aku x suke mmg aku ckp teros je , aku rse next year aku x de kawan kot , rehat la kau sorang2 , tpy aku rse aq leh survive kot , sbb aku ni pengawas yg berwibawa (letak tangan atas bahu pandang atas juling kan mate sikit ) at least aku dt gak jdi pengawas x mcm ko ! muhahaah . sebnarnya aku ni minat Zayn Malik yg laki hensem islam tpy ade tattoo and semua org kate die gay tu , dri One Direction , ingat tau die aq nye , nak tgok muke die ? die ngan aku ?

sesuai kan ? aku tau , aq x suka klu kawan aku yg aq benci pon nak suke Zayn Malik aku ni , sebnarnya psal Zayn Malik ni , aku dah berazam untok ke tiga nak wish borthday die 12 January , yg azam sebenarnya , aq nak die wish blik untok aku birthday aku 2 day after his birthday (acehh speaking pulak ) 14 January , aku mmg nak sangat die wish untok aku , tu adelah antara benda yg aku nak buat seblom aku mati and also aku pon nak jumpa die jugak , klu die wish time birthday aku even dekat twitter mmg sgt bermakna untok aku , aq tau umor aku ngan die mmg jauh beza aku skang 13 tahun die 19 tahun , and di ade tatoo even die islam aku x leh kahwin ngan org yg ada tatoo and tattoo tu haram untok org islam , takpe aku syg die , aq rs aku ade azam yg keempat ,tpy aku rse aq x leh tunaikan kot aku rse aku nak ckp kat crush aku yg aq mnat diorang sehari sebolm birthday aq , tpy even aq ni kasar or org pnggil aku Tomboy , aq ni bab nak luahkan perasan mmg lemah la , aq crush dgn org yg sngat hensem aku ni pulak dah x lawa , gemok pulak tuh , x pe aku akan jujur klu aku nak la , azam aku yg kelima aq nak improve aku nye personality kot , kawan aku kate aku ni simple tpy cool , korang tau x taste lelaki camne ? aku rse perangai mcm aku ni ptut jdi kwan dgn lelaki buka awek lelaki tuh , x pe la , Allah dah letak jodoh aku spe , just wait and see .